Arrrrghhh....

Writers block sucks. It's like I can't get out anything more than a paragraph...I keep getting these little scenes in my head, but they're all reeeally short and going nowhere...and when I did get something that could be, you know, a bit longer, it ran away. I think it's mainly my Writebug seems sad or whatever. MuseBoy is jumpy as ever... I'm just failing him pathetically.

At least I have good friends (Aki-tama, Suri, Cain, Ren, Miha, Ecx, Allen, Dizzy, BubbleGum, Nicu, Fujicakes, Doc)who have been taking care of me because I'm in bad sorts and they're wonderful. And the weather is 'bad', which means stormy and rainy and thunder and lightening, which means in reality it's awesome. There's supposed to be more, but I've learned not to trust weather reports and such because I live too far from any place they accurately predict it. I've just got my fingers crossed for snow like last years'.

Also, I've been working on hating myself less and having more confidence...It's actually really hard. Why the eff it's that way I have no idea, but what can you do? Again, my wonderful friends are helping me. And I'm trying to make new ones, because I used to be good at it, but again...like with my writing, I've lost my touch. He just had some bad shit happen to him, and I know what it feels like to feel useless (it's terrible), so I want to try to help him. He'll probably end up helping me, too, even if unintentionally.

Ooooh, and more wonderful friends are going to be back from school soon! They live up in Farawaysvill, like, across the state, so seeing them is a rare feat for me. But! I might be going up there for a few weeks, maaaybe, but honestly right now it's not looking so good...I hope things change about that, because I need a break away from my family. Just...they are too too much. I'll leave it at that.

You sit there in your
Heartache
Waiting on some
Beautiful boy to
To save you from your old way

You play forgiveness
Watch him now
Here he comes

He doesn't look a thing like Jesus
But he
Talks like a Gentleman
Like you imagined when you
Were young


Dream Happy Dreams, everyone.